Cruality in lonelyness......

Sittin' behind d solitude among d crowd o' soal mate stars of 2ny8 wid me,Enjoying d music o' wind , Colling was gettin' in2 my nerves makin' me fell better. thou it was sm sort o' addictive stuff tryin' 2 make me oblivious of d fact dat d wall above won't ever allow me 2 come out o' my grave, no matter hw more I crave ...

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Far BeYond The Intr!cacy of Th!s Dynam!c WorLd The!r is smtng more dynamic,more intricate n smtng which lie far beyond d capturing power of common mind.

Smtng dat still f@king me upppp.......

it would be totally unfair if i come across ur way n turn towards u by offensively throwing a fist on u...see wat sort a mess i m in. i kno i m nt dat sort of boy bt situation comes out in a way dat
i m unable to hang on. I can still remember d tym wn I was too desperate to throw d agony out o of my lyf.
get d all mess aside, now plz tell me wat should i go for now,I m totally empty today ,wat should i upto now to search d peace o mind back to me.It's still faking me up....

nyway, god says dat d remerdy 4 evry pain is tym bt den wat is d remedy 4 tym. Now I've nobody 2 move along bt tnx 2 god 4 it 'coz I've nobody 2 care abt ........

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Ordinary ppl hav dat additional burdon 2 do smtng extraordinary 2 get noticed.

self esteem or ego.......





keepin myself far away fm d stunning impediments o mind divertin g god's creature, accepted , i m unable rather unwilling o getting any sort o doz lyf enjoying joys coming fm dem bt insanity o mind dat i've possessed in me might b indirectly a key to destiny .
D bad tym passed as it was bound to bt dignity involved in it was dat it taught me a tng dat never loose urself even after a couple o failure lyk bad tym itself as it is beaten every tym by good tym .
if u can't stand urself in front o severe situation , dan indulge urself in doz activities, which might , in turn , creates un bearable intances dan circumstances will definately make u strong .

UnPredict@ble MystEries....

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smtng dat startles me by it's amaging vague mysteries n bugs me alot is lyf. A very, simple or very sophisticated or wtever. Almost evrybody tnks n confused wth d deep theory o lyf . A lot o guys u see around is plannin for such a future which exists nowhere which means dat he would get nothing for evrytng he did.

hw easily i puked smtng abt it bt he strived thruout his lyf in d anticipation o success bt he got nothing apart fm d end. Almost avrytng happening around is filled wth such suspect ur sences can't predict abt. Wn d surprising level crosses d limit dat u r unwillin to possess dat u discover dat smthin or @least smtng exists behing all these complexity naming d failure o ur sences as GOD.

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provokin' infidelity......

inceptive odysey final 4 destination

No matter if i die , No matter my soal cry, No matter if throat dries after death ,The obsession is not dat wat would happen after an eternel sleep inside an monsterous grave, but wat would happen 2 u after i had died ,,,,i am sure dat u'll certainly come 2 my grave n u may get tortured 'coz of me 4 no reason.

1 day u would b out of concious 'coz of ur grace 4 me ,INFACT, coz o' me ....

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My inspir@tion n n n !!!

In a full moon nyt while killing my time I was sittin' on d top of my house n continuously staring d sky I was absorbin' d fragrance o' roses dat d wind had brought along. The weather was charming n ny8 was crowded with the whole string o' fellow mate stars.

I couldn't help myself nt fallin' in2 a deep hypnotic dream.

I thought~ "The light emergin' fm d stars is jst a reflection of all in all sun n stars knowingly comes evry day at d same location in d sky as they were d day b4 having d intense desire 2 fill d whole sky with d light of joy n happines but every time they fail but they never lose their hope n aspiration 2 achieve dyr unfilled dream, they never bcome disappionted .After each n every 24 hour u find them at d same time n same place n with d same desire".

Suddenly a rain drop felt over my mouth which came after travelling a miles of distance fm deeper in2 d sky,Another drop felt over my left eye n it was quite enough 2 break my dream. A couple of drops started falling n wth a heavy thunderbolt in d sky,d weather which was pleasant some tym b4 rendered into a terrible one n ny8 changes in2 a stormy ny8.

Even though i was completely wet ,I was still gazing at d sky.

Then I thought that men r d best creation of god has ever made.Men always feels that he is unique , he is supreme,he is extraordinary but Is it so.men ,being d best 1 ,he doesn't even have a notion of wat he desires d most. Being confused ol d tym he remains with his own inability 2 figure out wat suits best at d tym when he is lost with d struggle among his inocent heart n minded brain . Every now n then he bcomes too disappointed n frustrated n get melt down by evry weary shot o' circumstances. This entire episode stimulated sm sort o' dynamism deeper inside me. Even d stars keep movin' dyr own feet n nvr bcme disappointed aftr a couple of failours. !!!

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